My dearest,
Did you know I write? And in the last year that has passed, you have been my favorite subject. This is because even the blind see how in love with you I am.
But also in this year that goes by I have learned your feelings aren't likewise and I'm the fool in this play. I've tried to put through my mind I must see you as the great friend you are but it misfires when I look at you and my heart skips a beat to then melt, and when you hug me and for an instant, I fall into the illusion that you're mine and these feelings are alike.
All this melodrama because I need to close this chapter but I'm finding it hard to do. I never had to close a chapter like this and never had to deal with such emotions bursting into my chest. This turmoil you created inside of me.
So I made a deal with myself to stop liking you and only see you with the good eyes of friends. But it's so complicated when you're the most caring soul to me, the sweetest being. Thus I'll step away, stop feeling anxious to see you, to at least get a text from you.
Could I move on without making all this scene? Perhaps, but every time I tried to silently step aside, I failed miserably with the glimpse of your smile and the touch of your hand.
Nevertheless, I am happy and thankful. If I had to choose someone to show me this whole new world of emotions and to break all my rules, I would've chosen you over and over again.
But now I'll kiss you goodbye, until next time.
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